To those who are still with me:
I would like to apologize for my prolonged absence. My home was damaged fairly heavily by hurricane Michael, but, compared to many of my neighbors, we were blessed. If all goes well, we will be moving back in to our house this weekend. We’ll still have a few days of smaller chores to do next week, but, all things considered, the Lord has been far more generous to us than we deserve and we are profoundly grateful. However, even before the storm, I had been going through a time of testing.
As I grow in our faith, I find myself becoming less and less willing to express my opinion on anything. This is because I have started to think less and less of myself and more and more about others. Add this to a growing sense of remorse over the current trends in society and a struggle with the sense of apathy this has created in me toward my fellow man and you can start to understand why I’ve been silent for so long. To be honest, it would be very easy for me to just go away. But there’s the catch: the Lord has made it painfully obvious that He is not going to allow me to stay silent. The fire within has been growing hotter and I am going to have to return to writing or I’ll be consumed from within.
Ultimately, I have to realize that I am not writing for me, I am writing for Him and for those whom my words are meant to help. For my part, this means I need to learn to humble myself and submit to His will. If I were honest, I suppose I should count myself blessed that I am among those who actually knows the sound of His voice, and can tell the difference between His will for me and my own. Still, the fact remains that I do not want to do this anymore. But then, that is one of the reasons I know He wants me to keep writing: because it is something that helps others but I do not want to do. If it were just me and my will, I’d just go away without any after thought..
Anyway, I am going to pray over my blogs and His will for them for the next week or so and then do whatever I feel lead to do. It is very likely this will mean I delete this blog page and write only on The Oyl and The Road to Concord, but I don’t know for sure — yet. Whatever it is I am told to do, I assure you, I will let you know as soon as I know. I just need time to make sure I do His will and not mine. I pray you will understand.
Thank you for waiting on and supporting me. Now, please, just give me a little more time and I know I’ll be back to work.